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So well written. And so many parallels with my experience! And LOVE the fart story. I’ve often wondered why I seem to have a deficiency in the area of shame but it’s one of the things I’m so grateful due to a great deal of rebellion domaine seeking behaviour when younger too! I’m getting assessed for ASD as it runs in the family and is comorbid (and I have many other sensitivities and behaviours and family history) and find myself now internally investigating which part of me drives certain habits and behaviours (and unlearning the unhelpful ones that aren’t related to either). It’s been a process and a discovery that has finally led to self acceptance and inner peace for me. Thank you for the read. ☺️

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It's a crazy road of discovery Gem, isn't it. What a time. Love your story! x

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I’m also in perimenopause and suspect I have ADHD (and probably ASD as well). My symptoms have been worse in recent years. The things I usually do to try and keep my life in order don’t seem to work anymore and my life feels like a mess. I’m constantly apologizing for forgetting things or not doing things I know I should have done but just couldn’t get myself off the couch to do.

I look forward to reading your work.

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From Rach to Rach: solidarity, name-twin...! I know the thought of pursuing diagnosis is overwhelming (the amount of paperwork and admin required is like a mean ironic joke on the ADHD brain) but I hope if you feel that's what might be going on, you can seek some help. If ASD and ADHD are part of your make-up, there are neurological reasons for your overwhelm. There's support out there to start feeling better; and you're not alone. xxx

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Thank you name twin! I’m booked in for an assessment. First appointment is in a week 😬Thank you for your kind words and encouragement 😊.

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Peri is a bitch & I hate how it’s changed me & my life.

My ASD daughter has said from the beginning of her diagnosis “people say having autism is a superpower but it’s not. It just makes my life harder.” I think k she’s lucky to have been diagnosed at a young age & I hope as she gets older she doesn’t see it a something so hard to live with.

I’m looking forward to this series Rach & watching you learn to fly x

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I'm filled with optimism Re, in fact. Diagnosis has brought a lot of clarity for me. I hope your daughter grows into it. I have a child who hates the phrase 'superpower' too. It is infantilising somehow. Patronising. But knowing oneself: that's the superpower, I think. From that point comes boundaries, wisdom, all the good stuff. Hugs to you!

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Even at such a young age she has so much self awareness & that makes me think she’ll be just fine. But it’s a wild ride figuring it all out as we go along.

As for peri, it makes me feel like I don’t know myself anymore. I feel like I’m discovering a whole new version of myself & im not sure I like her very much.

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I like her a lot Re. She's warm and honest and ethical and creative. She's a keeper. Big hugs to you x

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